Hi everyone, I can't see
me being able to write again over the next few weeks so I wanted to give you a
quick update & wrap up my blog for the end of 2014...
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| Boadicea |
Things haven't gone how I
would have liked them to recently & in fact I am feeling quite bloody miserable!
It was bound to happen
sooner or later, but I caught a horrible cold bug about a fortnight ago that
went straight onto my lungs & made me feel rotten. Sadly, my lung function
shot straight down after trying to do all I could to prevent it, I was really
struggling for breathe & coughing up lots of crap so thought it was best to
be seen by my local hospital as I was so scared. (I had notified Harefield
also)
They admitted me that day
much to my protest, although deep down I knew it was for the best. Harefield
are so jam packed at the moment, they did want me there but they had no beds
& I was third in line to wait for one to become available. With the
symptoms I had they were testing for a particular viral pneumonia, the results
were being sent to Bristol so would take a while to return, Harefield didn't
want me on IV's as yet so it was just a matter of waiting which didn't sit with
me too well at all.... After begging my consultant to at least increase my
steroids & doing lots of physio to clear my lungs as much as possible by
the second day in the early evening I was feeling much better with regards to
breathing.
It really helped having my
friends there too to make me laugh, I must admit this time round I had
fantastic support, not only did Kate pick me up from home & take me in, she
also stayed with me all day til we had a 'plan' then both Kate & Alicia
came in the following morning bright & early with a McDonalds breakie &
stayed with me all day again... This helped my hubby a lot as he was able to
stay at work & look after our adorable zoo, knowing I wasn't suffering on
my own. I also had a surprise visit from Daves' (Ladylungs) wife Marie & my
sister came up on the Friday evening with some much needed munch!
I convinced the team on
the Saturday morning that I was ok & I would be much better recovering in
the comfort of my own home where I could actually sleep & eat .... My lung
function had fractionally increased so they let me home on the strict
instructions to come back if I was worse & to continue coming back for
bloods & lung function tests which I did on both the Monday then Wednesday,
& unfortunately to my GP again this morning because they lost my bloody
bloods from Wednesday!
Basically, I am feeling a
lot better than I was, but it's a slow recovery, I am still fairly bunged up
with my nose & gunk on my chest but my lung function hasn't dropped. I am
very tired, pretty much all the time, I think it has wiped me out but I know
that my miserable mood won't be helping me at all. I just feel very down &
disappointed, I think, because I love Christmas so much & so far things
just haven't gone my way I am feeling very sorry for myself. Nice plans have
been cancelled & I am trying to get as well as I possibly can so I can just
have a nice Christmas at home!
I haven't yet socialised,
I'm constantly reading people are all going out for Christmas drinks/ parties /
shopping / family gatherings & I am sat home in my pj's watching endless
Christmas cooking programme's whilst Stef's working.
I'm just a bit 'blue'.
When to be totally honest I should be bloody grateful that I am home & not
up in Harefield or fighting for my life like some other people I know. I just
need to snap out of it. May take some time, but I'll get there....
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| Kaos |
Should all be well & I
keep my ass out of hospital, we will be spending a lovely Christmas afternoon
with good friends which I am really, really looking forward too. I have Stef
home for a whole 10 days after he breaks up next Tuesday & I can't wait to
spend some time with him, he needs a good break & we have plenty of time to
spend with our beautiful family & make some wonderful memories together.
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| Reunited With My Babies After A Few Days In Hospital |
I will leave you with some
piccies of the babies & from the bottom of my heart, wish everyone that is
reading this A Very Merry Christmas. Whether you have had a shit time recently
or feeling unlucky, please know it won't last for ever, as always I will strive
to think positive & make the best out of every situation & I hope that
you can too...
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| Fun At Keviccs |
To those fighting for your
second chance, please don't give up, you WILL get there...
For those amazing people
that never got their second chance (& there were far too many this year)
you will never be forgotten & your spirit lives on, rest in eternal
peace...
For the people that walked
out my life this year, (there were many of them too) I constantly battled with
myself about what I had done & why I was to blame, turns out it just took
me a hell of a long time to realise what a waste of space you were & it's your
loss, I certainly don't need that negative shite in my life....
To the people that have
had my back & supported me through thick & thin, I love you dearly, you
know who you are....
To my donor, it goes
without saying I wouldn't be writing this now if it hadn't been for you. You
are never out of my thoughts... My angel.
& to the one person
who gets me. We've had one hell of a year (yet again) but look how strong it's
made us, I don't believe anything can break us Stefan, we will have been
together 5 years this coming January the 4th & I can't wait to celebrate
all the laughs, tears & stress with you for yet another... I love you so
much.
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| My Whole World |
Merry Christmas Guys &
I wish you all the very best for 2015. Make it count. Over & out.
Thank you for taking the
time to read as always xxxxx
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