I am so crap at updating
this for you, life is going by so quickly these days I just don't know what day
we are in most of the time.
I am still on the TPN
treatment, two months down the line & although frustrating at times, it has
just become another daily routine in order for me to be around on this planet...
I saw the specialist a fortnight ago & he wants me on it until September
before we decide if it will be a permanent medicine regime. My cramps have
improved, but my kidneys, surprisingly remain the same which I think they are
disappointed with. (As am I)
Kaos' has come on leaps
& bounds with his protocol. We have been able to have at least four
complete strangers (to him) visit the house using his training technique &
he has welcomed them with loving paws & his backside for you to rub after a
few minutes.... I am so bloody proud of him. They have both settled in
perfectly now & you can see they see the place as their forever home. We
have already been here for four months but it just feels like it has always
been our home. It's really weird that I don't miss the house that I lived for
in eleven years, but the honest truth is that I haven't thought about it once...
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| This little princess just turned two ! |
We have been up to a fair
few things over the last few weeks.
Bmad (Charity bike event)
has been & gone, which I attended on both days & the bike nights have
started now throughout the Summer so Stef & I will be out with our brother
in law for some rides, you won't be able to miss my Venom helmet! (Or nails...)
We went to Stefan's
brothers fight night for support which he totally smashed, that was enjoyable
to get dressed up & be out with all the family as we had VIP tables &
it was the first time i had personally been to see Shane fight.
We've just celebrated my
brothers 30th Birthday with a surprise BBQ (that went down well!) & of
course I have been making some memories with good friends on days that I don't
end up in A&E ;)
Random yoga sessions,
pictures in a rapeseed field, watching my nephew & niece grow up, arcades & cream teas in the sunshine.
I am really hoping the
weather improves over the next few weeks before the all important events come
up .... Stefan will be turning 30 years old in June, it'll be our 8 year
wedding anniversary, I will hit the ripe old age of 36 & my lungs will be 7
towards the end of July! I say it all the time, but it never becomes any less
significant. I cannot believe the extra time I have had here with all my family
& friends. After all the problems with my stoma & kidneys I thought it
may well be time to give up, but despite my resting bitch face &
intolerable moods, I still cherish every living moment. To think within that 7
years we have our own little family (they maybe dogs, & skunks!) but
animals are family too - Stefan has a great job, I have a very supportive
hospital team, we both have incredible family members & friends & now
we own our very own house. It is something that I never would have imagined for
us a few years ago, but we made it.
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| Cookie hit the media again.... |
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| Bane in the Rain... |
Life isn't fucking easy
either, there are times I wake up & think, not today, Stef has bad days, we
don't talk, we yell, we take shit out on other people & have fall outs but
we are extremely lucky at the end of the day & we work hard for what we
have. No one can say otherwise. I battle every day to see the morning of the
next day, I'd only need to stop one of my daily treatments to say goodbye, it
really could be that easy. I see people struggle, especially more recently
& it makes me fight all the more to want to carry on. I want BBQ's in our
garden, trick or treaters at Halloween & to have the cosiest of Christmas's
- I want that for years & years to come, but it can't be promised. Who
knows what could happen around the corner... Until then I am just thankful I'll
see tomorrow.
Thank you for reading,
understanding & all your support as always,
xxxxx
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